Romans♥

Today, I started reading the first chapter of Romans and it brought me to tears. I love Paul. He did so many wrong things, but once God entered his heart, he changed so much. I love the fact about how Paul doesn't act like he is somebody holy, he admits that he is a sinner like everybody else. He admits that he was lost before God found him. I love how modest he is and the words he speaks just bring me to tears. He is not afraid to tell his story, about how he persecuted Christians and gave approval to Stephan's stoning, then he accepted Christ into his heart and became a better person for God.♥

Yesterday, I was reading a book my pastor Mikey gave me, and it talks about different ways of reading the Bible. There is one way, where you read the Bible really really slowly the first time, then you repeat it still very slowly the second time, and you listen for words that really stand out to you. If there is a word that caught your mind, dwell upon it and ask God if there was a reason why it stood out to you, and you might want to journal. I was doing this last night,and I was reading a Psalms verse, and I was just thinking while I was reading it, how much peace it brings to my heart to just listen to the words of our Savior. The feeling of peace it brings me is un-describable. I can have all the stress in the world plus some, but it still continues to amaze me the fact that I am sitting here reading the Bible, who is the words of the King of Kings. It leaves me in awe and leaves me wanting more. I love reading Psalms for calamity and worship.
I was doing my devotion yesterday and today and it is really focusing on prayer. It is talking about Praying and what it really stands for. P stands for praise, R stands for repentance, A stands for asking, Y stands for yield. Yesterday, my devotion talked about praise. So after I read it, I really felt like praising God. I was like "You know God. Thank you for this past year full of laughter, smiles, and tears and let it be a great year...". Today, it was about repentance. After I read it, I prayed as I did yesterday. "God, you are so amazing. You sent your Son to die for me and rise again, and I am unworthy to tie your sandals. You love me so much. Thank you...". Please note I don't exactly remember the words, since it was in the morning, these are what I remember the most. I can't wait for tomorrow's devotion. I love God so much, and I can't wait for Winter Break to be over so I can spread the word of God to those who don't have it, and to support those who do.
Lately, I have been thinking a lot about my future. I love performing, including song and dance the most. But then again, I would love the opportunity to teach others about God. I don't know yet, I still have a lot of time to think about my future, so I am going to let God be in control of my life.
Sorry about this freakishly long blog post; but I had a lot to say.