setting things straight.

i'm here to settle things straight with myself.
1)I'm not here on this world to hide in an attic with my Bible.
I am here to give the Good News and to become a witness to those who aren't as fortunate. I am here to take a stand and live for Christ. Christ died for me so I can live for Him. I am here to become a Follower of Christ. I am not here to get into verbal or any kind of fights, I am not called to hide in a corner and pretend that the world is going to be fixed by someone else. I am called to love!
2) I'm not here on the globe to be a fake to Christ.
I don't want to tell someone something else, then go out and do the opposite. I am here to live a life devoted to Christ. I am here not to be served, but to serve. It's so stupid how I act sometimes. I was looking through old entries of my Prayer Journal and I had a list of how to serve. One of the thingymabobers was to sing on Praise and Worship Night. Somehow I know I did that for my own vanity. Now I know that whether you are miked or not, whether you have won American Idol or not, we are all one when we are singing to God. I am not going to spend hours prepping a song so I can get a loud applause. Sure, as a singer, I know you kind of have to practice or else you can't know what you're doing up there because it isn't like you go on stage and belt it out, but I am not going to do it anymore so I could get lots of claps, which I love, but I am doing it so I can worship God. He is the only audience. I just wished I realized that earlier.
3) I am NOT perfect.
I am definitely imperfect. I am not ashamed to admit I have fallen in and out of peer pressure; I am not wise with words, ect. I am not ashamed to admit these things anymore. God has forgiven me and now I am willing to testify my story to possibly help people convert to Christ. I have done things I am defiantly not proud of. I know these things now. I know I am not perfect. And for once, I realize that that is perfectly fine now.

This year has brought me things to realize, and that is not a bad thing.
This year I have realized things I have never thought I would; but that's not a bad thing anymore.