Who I am vs. the person God wants me to be

Who I am:
angry, self-seeking, envious, murderous, raging, sinful, never content, hateful, ect.
Who God wants me to be:
Loving, caring, modest, His Light, there for others, devoted to Him, and ultimately have God in the center of my life.

Ya know, I've always thought of my life well planned out. I'd go to college, meet my husband, get married, work part time with a mini-van and a dog in the backyard and four kids. Lately the Holy Spirit has been telling me that there is something more then just live a typical life.
Today at my church Pastor Chuck was talking about oaths, and how if we make them we have to keep them. When I accepted Christ into my heart, I don't want to just stop there and say "Okay I'm good for the rest of my life." I want more. I want Christ as the center as my life. I want to read my Bible every day and pray to God not just when I need Him, but to grow closer to God and talk to Him and grow a relationship with Him. I want to be loving, and by that I mean is dependent on the Holy Spirit to help me forgive those who hurt me because ultimately God loved me first. That night when Christ died on the cross isn't just something to store in a little box around Easter. I want to remember that sacrifice everyday. As Francis Chan says that we are called more then to just go to church every Sunday and sing songs..He's calling and reaching out His Hand for such a more intimate relationship with me and He wants us to be devoted to Him and keep Him as the center of our lives, not just around the edges. I want to live not as just a typical person "speeding" through life, instead I want to take time and really live for God and allow the Holy Spirit to transform me into a new creation, one that's loving and wants more of Jesus. Will you join me? :)