Wow.

Wow. How many times have I started something with this simple, three-lettered word? I'm sitting here on a precious afternoon, with the sun shining down, despite the rain that's been predicted. The sky is a memorizing blue that brings me in awe, just enough to know that God is romancing us, despite my speechlessness. As I look back at this year, I realize that it has been a good year. Some moments were better than others, but every moment has brought me closer to God, the author and perfecter of faith. I've had moments where I've been the Prodigal Son, but then God's Grace has found me in my ruin and refined me, filling me with His grace and compassion, though my wayfaring soul is undeserving. I've learned a lot, but still have a lot to learn and that's okay. I've gotten closer to my friends, and realized the true meaning of fellowship with other believers is so vital to a Christian's life. I've cried a lot, and that's okay, that the first sign of life is to cry. More than anything, God has romanced me and brought me to the state of worship where my heart cries out to devote everything I am to Him, especially in this season of giving.

2010 has been a year of memories. Everyone has those memories where you can't seem to forget them, no matter how hard you try. A blessed memory I had this year was hanging out with some of my best friends like Adam, Maddie, Teal, and Whitney. It's been so much fun talking to them, being encouraged by them, and performing with them. My friends have been there for me through the good, the bad, and the ugly.They've seen me in my worst state, and still continued to be there for me. It's my prayer to somehow be the friend that they are to me daily. I am so undeserving of their company, of their encouraging hugs, of our inside jokes. I know I can always turn to them when craziness is around me. To say the least, I'm blessed. :) Love you guys! :D

A hard memory for me this year was when my sister Jayden got diagnosed with Leukemia. When I heard the news, my whole world got turned upside down. I was afraid. I didn't know what to do. I remember when last year she had a fever of about 109 for two straight weeks. She shaved her model-like hair. Things were really hard that time of year. But God showed us the benefits of trusting Him in the times of hardship. He held us close in that period of time, and is showing His Face towards us even today.

This year I stopped comparing myself. As a performer, its really hard not to compare yourself because the music business wants the best of the best. But through one of my favorite Scriptures, Jeremiah 29:11, the Spirit showed me that I am good enough. That God gave me these talents for a reason. That I don't have to compare myself with anyone, but thank God He is molding me into the person I am. This for me, is enough to fill any void.

As I look back on my past adventures from 2010, I realize this is what life is all about. Conquering your fears. Living life out loud. Learning to go on your knees in submission to the Lord, and realizing you are strong enough to pick yourself up again. And when all is said and done, you'll have family, friends, and God to go home to.

To sum up my wondering thoughts, I'm standing here, blissfully content, I realize how many sweet moments that deserve a "Wow" and hope that every moment of my life is like this...leaving me in awe of my perfect Creator.

"Surely Your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever." Psalm 23:6