This week has been full of trials, of drama, of troubles.
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she's wandered
And the shame she can't hide
She says, "How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
And I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen too far to love"
Brokenness became a state in my heart and instead of passionate, I became passive.
I was exhausted of the hurt, and I just wanted to go back to bed when I heard the song You Are More by Tenth Avenue North.
There's a girl in the cornerI was exhausted of the hurt, and I just wanted to go back to bed when I heard the song You Are More by Tenth Avenue North.
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she's wandered
And the shame she can't hide
She says, "How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
And I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen too far to love"
I really feel as if God is speaking to me lately. The sermon on Sunday was about using trials to have a refined faith and a redefined attitude. The sermon on Monday was about experiencing God through Scripture and being assured He loves us. And this song, oh my goodness, it keeps ringing over and over again.
Confession: I have a hard time being broken. I try to bottle everything up and somehow make everything okay, hiding my tears, hiding my pain to make everyone happy. You know when you are writing an important letter with a pen, and then you mess up? The scribble on your paper makes it evident that something happened to create a blemish, a mark of imperfection. But it's okay. There will always be more paper when God is writing my story. He's been letting me that:
You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
I praise God for providing me with godly friends and family who let me know that God loves me no matter what I do. When it feels like I mess everything up, it is God that leads me into a time of worship when I realize how big He is. When it feels like I can't please everyone, it is God that comforts me and holds me. When it feels like everything is a blur, it is God that leads me into safe pastures.
'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to
I know God is writing my story as I type. I know He has a plan for everything, and He is going to use this experience to strengthen me. When you are running a marathon, you have to train before. Sometimes its an easy run, but there are always those runs that make you feel like you are going to pass out, that you aren't strong enough. But in the end, you realize how stronger you are. God doesn't want me to run this race without me being ready for it first. I know He loves me, and I know that part of the training will hurt. But it will refine my faith and make me stronger. A verse I've been really touched on is John 3:30"He must become greater; I must become less." I hope the love of God is so evident to everyone around me, that they know that I belong to the King of Kings. I must become less, and it is a constant battle to take up my cross and deny myself of my selfish pleasures. I know change will come, and I know hard times will come, but it's okay. It's all in His Plan.
Confession: I have a hard time being broken. I try to bottle everything up and somehow make everything okay, hiding my tears, hiding my pain to make everyone happy. You know when you are writing an important letter with a pen, and then you mess up? The scribble on your paper makes it evident that something happened to create a blemish, a mark of imperfection. But it's okay. There will always be more paper when God is writing my story. He's been letting me that:
You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
I praise God for providing me with godly friends and family who let me know that God loves me no matter what I do. When it feels like I mess everything up, it is God that leads me into a time of worship when I realize how big He is. When it feels like I can't please everyone, it is God that comforts me and holds me. When it feels like everything is a blur, it is God that leads me into safe pastures.
'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to
I know God is writing my story as I type. I know He has a plan for everything, and He is going to use this experience to strengthen me. When you are running a marathon, you have to train before. Sometimes its an easy run, but there are always those runs that make you feel like you are going to pass out, that you aren't strong enough. But in the end, you realize how stronger you are. God doesn't want me to run this race without me being ready for it first. I know He loves me, and I know that part of the training will hurt. But it will refine my faith and make me stronger. A verse I've been really touched on is John 3:30"He must become greater; I must become less." I hope the love of God is so evident to everyone around me, that they know that I belong to the King of Kings. I must become less, and it is a constant battle to take up my cross and deny myself of my selfish pleasures. I know change will come, and I know hard times will come, but it's okay. It's all in His Plan.
You've been remade!
The last part of this song hits me the hardest. God is remaking me into His Child- a Child of hope, of promise, and love.
"For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the things He planned for us long ago." Ephesians 2:10 NLT
(Song by Tenth Avenue North)
The last part of this song hits me the hardest. God is remaking me into His Child- a Child of hope, of promise, and love.
"For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the things He planned for us long ago." Ephesians 2:10 NLT
(Song by Tenth Avenue North)
3 comments:
I LOVE this song. So much. So much. So much. So much.
Wonderful post, it's very deep!
You are more! You are beautiful! You are loved! You are a child of God! and You are so wonderful.
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