A Single Drop of Hope

The fan rushed through my golden blonde hair as memories of my past flooded through my head. Memories of who I used to be, what I used to do, and the hurt I caused. Numerous times I think I am okay, but really on the inside I was suffering immensely. Last school year was the hardest school year I have been through. My sister got sick, my grades were a constant combat, and a close friend left. Something I have noticed was that God was still with me. “Abba, Abba, why have You forsaken me? Why am I hurting so much”, my faithless heart would cry out. “Be still, My Child, for I orchestrate everything to work together”, His calm voice would say against the waves.

During these trials, I realized something passionately powerful. God never left me. He is drying my tears on those days where nothing seems right. He is calming me when I feel alone. When I am on my knees, God gives me hope for me, an undeserving sinner. The past may still hurt as bad as a scorpion’s sting, but I know that God is going to guide me and love me out of my misery.

This joy I have, its uncontrollable. God has given me so much abundant joy. Just think about it: while we were still sinners Christ died for us. Doesn’t it give you joy that our Heavenly Father cares so much for us that He was willing to die for us? He could have backed out, but He had His Heart set on saving us and regaining the lost sheep. Even when Peter tried to talk Him out of it He said “Get behind me Satan!” To me, that brings me so much joy that I can stretch out my arms, raise my hands and sing the praises to my Father without any weight or bondage. Or this: from the beginning of time His hand wove us with a purpose, a destiny, Something only we can do. Does that give you joy, knowing that you have a purpose in life, something so vital to our Heavenly Father that we fulfill it?

I’ve been listening to this song, The Desert Song by Hillsong around the house lately. This little snippet of the song gets me every time.

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Even through this dark cloud, even through these tribulations I will praise God, because He is still God and He is still Good.

“May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope,”-2 Thessalonians 2:16